I used to think that you were my everything you kept me alive but I realized that my bones just ached for the touch of love and I thought any kind of love was better than no love so I took your love by the bruises by punches and kicks and to stop all this pain I’d fill my body with smoke that would slowly rot me from the inside out making me go numb people told me that I should’ve left you long ago but how do you leave the ocean when it’s pulling you out to sea and I don’t know if I’d prefer bruises over kisses or hugs over punches because I’ve come to terms that love should hurt and anything gentle could break me quicker than the fist of a man.
I remember your long hair the way it would blow back in the wind and get caught up in tangles kind of like the way my stomach would tangle in knots when you’d say my name your eyes were so bright and beautiful up until the day I told you I loved you because then your eyes became dark and sad and you told me you couldn’t love me back because you didn’t know how to love I told you that it didn’t matter that I could love you and myself but every time I told you I loved you and you never said it back the air would leave my lungs and not return and now I’m not sure that I can love you anymore because it really is slowly killing me and I don’t know what’s more important your life or mine?
Babysitting the bro this morning. Watching Lilo & Stitch with a delicious, healthy smoothie! #BreakfastOfChamps #HealthyEating #DisneyDay #BigSister #BabyBro <3
Sissy bought me a shake and brought it home *insert heart eye emoji* <3